A Reason to Celebrate

I recently received a HUGE answer to prayer. To say I had a sense of relief today is an understatement;  almost felt like I could breathe again for the first time in several weeks actually. Since returning back to New York just 3 months ago I’ve already faced many hardships. Don’t get me wrong, I knew what I was getting myself into having lived here before, but  the thoughts, why am I doing this to myself, I’m exhausted, and  cut me some slack run through my head almost daily.

I can say that the most positive thing since returning to New York is the network of amazing friends I am building and the church Hillsong, which I have been going to every week. The first week I went it brought me to tears with words spoken that I needed to hear and ever since it’s continued to renew my spirit weekly and fill me with hope and joy and peace and give me strength to pursue the week ahead. I continue to go back because each time I feel this amazing sense of Joy and Welcome like I’m at home, and I hear things that I feel are intended for me to hear, and I meet encouraging people.

Tonight I had somewhat of a revelation and something really encouraged my heart BIG TIME and I wanted to share it.

I mentioned that I had a huge prayer answered; I had been praying endlessly about a situation in my life and asking others to pray about it as well. A pastor named Rich Wilkerson Jr gave a sermon tonight at Hillsong Church in NYC. He pointed out that a prayer should be three things, PURPOSEFUL, CONFIDENT, PERSISTENT. My prayers recently were definitely in line with these three things. He mentioned our prayers should be almost “sniper focused”, so detailed with a direct vision in mind. My prayer was definitely of huge purpose!! I knew if God wanted me to stay in New York…this prayer would NEED to be answered. He also mentioned our prayers should be CONFIDENT . I definitely had faith that God would provide for me. He has never let me down in the past, he’s always come through for me. And, although I felt like I needed a miracle, I knew he could do it…because I had a strong feeling I was meant to stay here. He didn’t bring me this far just to desert me. And, lastly he said our prayers should be PERSISTENT. God honors and loves when we are persistent, when we don’t give up; his timing is not always ours, but ,1 Thessalonians 5:17 says “pray without ceasing.”

When my prayer was answered it was like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders and and all I could think was “GREAT IS HIS FAITHFULNESS”!! He came through…He MADE A WAY when it seemed like there was going to be no way!! And, in doing so this has given me so much hope and encouragement. If HE is doing this for me now, he is going to continue to provide, continue to guide and carry me through difficult circumstances. My faith was strengthened!IMG_9231

With all that said and my prayer answered there still left one question in my mind; “why does it take so long sometimes for God to answer our prayers? Why does it feel like sometimes we have to go through so much to get some relief? Why drag it out? Why put obstacles in the way, and speed bumps down the path?” Well, for one, HE knew it was going to strengthen my faith that much more. I was persistent. He already KNEW my situation but I will admit, the longer I had to wait…the more I had to have faith that He was going to provide. But, most importantly he wants me to LET GO of my plan for my life and the way I want it to go and PICK UP what he has in store for me. He wants to USE my story, my struggles, my pain, and hardships, for HIS STORY. Because in this life, it is not about MY story, I’m here ultimately for HIS story. He’s USING me, just like all of those stories from the bible of men who had to make sacrifices , some went through pain, struggles , hardships, but all for the GLORY of the Kingdom of God.

Does he want me to be in pain? NO. Jeremiah 29:11 says: For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. BUT, how boring would my story be if everything in my life was perfect and went GREAT all the time and I got everything I wanted?? How would that affect others around me? Would that drive me, strengthen me and encourage me to write like I’m writing right now? NO! So, God knows what he’s doing; and I have to TRUST that he is using my story for HIS STORY because thats what it’s about.  And, this blog post is not just about ME….I am using myself as an example. But, it’s really about each and every one of you as well. We all play a part.

In closing I want to say that all of this leaves me in a REALLY GOOD PLACE with a lot more PEACE than I went into this week having. It takes the pressure off of my life, it takes the stress and anxiety off of me. Why? Because when the thoughts run through my head of, why am I in New York again? Why do I have to take this job? Why is this man in my life? Why is the person treating me this way? Why did this situation fall though? Well…trusting that it’s all for a purpose , for HIS purpose releases me from any of the anxiousness about having to figure that stuff out. I don’t have to know. As long as I continue to pursue the desires on my heart, follow my dreams, do what I love, and am sincere in prayer, HE’s going to SHOW me the answers to these questions. I don’t have to stress and try to have it all figured out. God’s got me, He’s got YOU too! ❤

Love you all


Hair Product Favorites- December 2014

Hey Guys!

I’ve been meaning to post more. I need to get into the groove. New York City is crazy busy; I’m always running around from place to place and good hair products are a must to keep my hair looking great everyday with a busy schedule. Here are some of my favorites currently.

Bamboo Alterna Luminous Shine Mist.

Bamboo luminous shine mist

Why I love it: It gives my hair a nice pick me up with shine and luminosity when it’s looking dry or lifeless. It smells absolutely amazing and I always get asked what I’m wearing when I spray this on my hair. It’s also really lightweight and doesn’t weigh long hair down.

Find it here : http://www.sephora.com/bamboo-luminous-shine-mist-P285154

Verb Dry Shampoo


Why I love it: This product has allowed me to go 3 days without washing my hair. It refreshes my blonde without being too white, it absorbs oil and adds volume and makes my hair look refreshed in a sexy tousled sort of way.

Find it here: http://www.verbproducts.com/dry-shampoo

BlowPro Dry Texture Spray

Blow pro dry texture spray

Why I love it: This product is the perfect pick-me-up spray that adds volume and a little hold without making my hair stiff; it keeps it soft and adds lots of body. This also smells amazing!

Find it here: http://www.amazon.com/blowpro-Textstyle-Dry-Texture-Spray/dp/B00G154P0E



Embracing Beauty -My Thoughts on Calvin Klein’s New Model, Myla Dalbesio


You might have recently seen the buzz around Calvin Klein’s New Model Myla Dalbesio who’s measurements are not the current Fashion Industry sample size standard , size 0-2. She is what is being called in “in betweenie”. Not thin enough to be doing runway , but not what you’d consider standard plus size. She is absolutely stunning, and there is no reason to give her any kind of label!

When I saw these posts  on Facebook about her and the Calvin Klein controversy all I could think was she’s going to have to have a ton of strength and courage to answer questions, and do interviews about this topic. Women should strive to be fit, to feel healthy, be strong, and believe in their beauty!

The labels  are precisely the problem in my opinion. My dream would be that all women could just embrace their looks and body for how it is, and not to be constantly comparing themselves to other women to try to look like someone else.  Being consumed with body image leads to so many unhealthy addictions, patterns and behaviors. I LOVE that Calvin Klein is not putting limits to who they use for their campaign. People should not be categorized by size, or how they appear in general. If you feel beautiful, and you believe in your talents, and strengths that’s what matters most.

I love that people are discussing this “appearance based” issue right now in the fashion industry, and I applaud Myla for being so open about her thoughts, and struggles being in the modeling world. More women need to come forward and be open about how they feel about their body and their image. Opening up makes you vulnerable and being vulnerable builds confidence!!

Myla Dalbesio is represented by JAG Models in New York City.

Love Came Down

It’s well past 1 am,  and I haven’t been able to sleep. Today was not the easiest of days….

I can think of about a million things I need to do right now , but for some reason, I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep until I write. I know New York is going to be amazing for me in that way, it inspires me in every way, especially writing.

I went to church tonight at Hillsong NYC in midtown Manhattan, and met some great new friends. The worship and message being given really hit me hard and convicted me to write and share my thoughts. As I was listening, I kept getting this prompting to share how it had impacted me, I told my myself I’d consider blogging about it. But, it wasn’t until the end of the service that the pastor said something about it “being useless unless we SHARE the message with others” and I was convicted…all I was thinking about on the train ride home was, I need to go home and WRITE!


With that said,  how are you feeling right now in this moment? Are you heartbroken…Lonely…worried about finances..scared of the future…ashamed of something you did or said…feeling defeated…angry with something or someone? Well, I can say I’ve felt all these things and more over the past week. I’ve only been in New York one week and I’m excited for what’s ahead, but also trying to adjust to all the drastic changes  and my new life here!

I am doing the best I can to trust that God will provide for my needs, and help guide me on the path that he wants me. I know it’s not going to be easy, but nothing rewarding is ever easy.

Tonight, as I went into Hillsong to worship, I was feeling very broken. I’ve had a lot of disappointments recently.  The message tonight was HE can RESTORE it ALL. No matter how deep our pain is, how broken hearted we feel, how lost or far off track we’ve gotten, through him, we can be made NEW again, our slate wiped completely clean. And, it is NEVER too late. God is not only ABLE to completely heal us from our pain and hurt, he is WILLING. It doesn’t matter how bad, how lost, how many times we have sinned …he’s GOT us. That is so reassuring; to know that there is a God who LOVE is so powerful, so unconditional, that all we have to do is ask him and we have restoration.

I will admit, as a single, independent woman I find a lot of disappointments in my life come from men. I am not saying that men are bad or anyone for that matter is bad…I’m simply saying that as humans, we disappoint each other, we don’t live up to each others expectations, and we hurt each other and after a while of repeated hurt you begin to lose hope and become hardened to trusting others.  But, being reminded that God’s Love is the only unfailing Love gives me peace and restores my hope…He is the only one who can fill that void in our heart that no other person or thing can possibly ever fill! 

I believe that my best is yet to come, I believe that YOUR best is yet to come. It is never too late to turn things around, start clean… be restored , and start new. Because He’s completely got you. And, it doesn’t matter how many times you’ve done wrong, HIS Love is absolutely unconditional, and unlike anything else in this life…it is the one thing I can be CERTAIN of and ALWAYS trust and count on. He’s GOT me. HE will carry me through any tough time I am going through.

That said, I know I’m in New York for a reason, it’s been on my heart and I feel more inspired here than anywhere else I’ve ever been!!  However,  just even within one week I’m reminded that in New York more than anywhere else I’ve been it is very apparent to me that sin and brokenness is all around. Everyone is hurting. We all have a past, and scars, insecurities and pain. But something the pastor said tonight was, “your clean is contagious…GREATER is God within you  than the culture around you.” That gives me so much peace! What a beautiful, amazing thing knowing that Jesus lives within me through the holy spirit, his power to make me clean, make me whole…can help others. And, knowing that gives me purpose. I am here for a reason, and so are you! You NEVER know what someone is going through, and a simple smile, or kind gesture, or just listening to someone can make a huge difference in their life!


So, no matter what you have going on in your life right now, how bad your hurting, how lonely you are, how scared or lost you feel…know that God’s Love is unfailing, and he WANTS you to turn to him. Not only is he ABLE to heal you of your hurt, he WANTS to! Maybe you’re reading this and have never prayed before, try it. Tell Him what you need and how you feel.

Wishing you all an amazing week! LOVE YOU!


New City, New Lipstick

Hey Guys!

If you haven’t heard the news;  I just moved to New York, my favorite city of all. While adjusting to life here can be stressful and overwhelming at times, I took a break this week to go to MAC and pick up some new lipsticks (as if I need anymore).

I chose a few shades that I didn’t have and felt I could use as an artist as well as for my own personal use. Here are four of the shades I picked up.

Relentless Red-a bright pinkish coral Matte.

Fashion Revivial- a dark muted raspberry with a semi Matte finish.


Blankety- a soft pink beige , amplified cream formula.

Pander me- a soft peachy mocha with a matte finish.


Looking Ahead: Swimwear Trends Around the World For 2015

2015 a wonderful fashion trip we need to take together. All around the world the trends are anywhere from digital prints to vintage cuts. Whether you are in Majorca or Miami the most important decision is the swimwear style. For this reason, high fashion designers have recreated themselves to make a bold statement or simply taking your waterside credentials to a higher standard.

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  • AFRICA Sharm el-Sheikh, Watamu or Diani beach are only some of the destinations full of turquoise waters and wide beaches. The trends for 2015 are a swimwear line with bright colors, high quality fabrics and sexy designs catering to the woman´s body. All designs inspired in the influence of the water and the uniqueness of the artisan’s world.
  • ASIA swimwear designs combine a traditional Chinese style with fashion sports and inspired in people´s imagination. The inspiration comes from Asian art and the four elements. Earth, water, air and fire are the fantasy and core of their collection. 2015 in Asia comes with contrast color matching of red, blue and pink showcasing luxurious glamour.
  • EUROPE Known for its vibrant colors and designs this 2015 the tiny bottoms are still in first choice accessorizing with hats, vest and pretty elegant dresses. This trend is forcing brands in the industry to a higher level of designs, materials and craftsmanship. Designers are introducing fresher looks and a much needed unique aesthetic. 2015 collection is inspired in the European style architecture.

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  • ANTARCTICA destinations like Deception Island or Black Sand Beach are the home of a summer wrapped in luxury and sophistication. In 2015 they are focusing on striking color palettes and neoteric feminine shapes.
  • AUSTRALIA polished satins, metallic shades, sequins and shiny jacquard designs are the key trends for this part of the world in 2015. Wildlife zebra and tiger stripes are used alongside sparkling stars. Gradient colors, holographic and iridescent finishing effects are all the motifs for this new season.
  • LATIN AMERICA Geometric Op Art designs layered or super sized to produce an elegant garment. In 2015 colors play an important role by using an exploding rainbow with many shades and phosphorescent bright creating architectural designs, enhancing the women´s silhouette.

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This is where the beach and the swimwear meet in the red carpet of the waves. The trend is to look seductive, elegant, feminine and comfortable all at the same time. Cover yourself with glamour and sophistication with the adequate fit for you and optimize your stunning presence with some jewels and accessories. Anywhere from Monte Carlo to Cabo the key is to celebrate the season in an elegant and exciting style. The dress code for this event: FABULUOS AND SEXY. Enjoy 2015 looking like a movie star!

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